ONE HEART

She stands in the door crying, as I look away knowing the heartbreak I have caused. She needed me and I just walked away.  CANCER had taken away her beauty and replaced it with bitterness. All the long days of fighting for her life had made her face cold and drawn, but those blue-green eyes still looked at me to the depths of my soul. As I walked to her, she thrust out her arms to keep me away. In a voice now low and shallow, she said "I don't need your pity"! The pain I felt was, astounding. Then she moved into the doorway, and all I could think of was JOHN WAYNE in the searchers, standing there looking out as the sun made him a silhouette. We had watched that movie a thousand times. This Was the first time I felt sadness thinking of it. I was a one trick pony, running away at the first sign of trouble, leaving the ones I LOVED BEHIND!!! Cancer was now killing her, but she was still as strong as ever, refusing to quit. Like I quit on everybody, for all the wrong things. Damn, I just gave up!!!!!!!!!!!! She pointed me towards the door; as I walked past her I looked at her, head down, I felt the pain again.  She grabbed my arm and then she said "We could have made it all the way home"! At that moment I understood, as I walked out the door, what I had lost; EVERYTHING !!!!!!